Some of you might be disappointed by the mismatch of my blog title 'cooldesires' with my content. It's more like a simple daily events report I am posting now & then, rather than a hearthy bag of cool desirees...which my blog title promises to you. Believe me this disappoints me as much as it does to you. Whenever I sit to write something I always desire to talk about my cool desires...and looks like this is becoming one of them ;(
Anyway I've something special for today..and I'll cut it short. This morning before heading for office, I did a little introspection to find out the reasons of my damping spirits for last couple of weeks, and specially why I wasn't doing what I am supposed to do as per my set targets. And I found that I am void of energy..to.carry on with my life. Well...you might say nothing special about it, it looks as plain and straight as life and death.But this gives me a direction of thoughts....everytime I slow down, it's not because I don't have things to work for. This journey seems to have endless destinations one after another. And if you mean by capability and opportunities, then that too I should have in plenty. But most of the time when I find myself stuck, it's like these targets seem to stop providing me the driving force. So I end up in reviewing my goals and trying to make them better or more valuable for me. But actually they are the same one, carrying the same meanings. So am I missing something. Yes...definitely. What I don't know. But I know that I always have been longing for it in one form or another. I know some of the forms in which I can think of getting it. And most of the time it doesn't work out that way. Can there be some way I can get it formless, so much that it can be an integral part of me or me to it....? My first cool desire..!!!

well...here I am again inspired by others' blogs to write something of my own. Last time when I was in San Jose, chess was my favourite time pass...and it would have been, had they not shown their interest towards my credit card number. So instead I took up reading rediff diaries and lately the blog section. And ya..I am grateful to my chess site for not allowing me to play. Its good to see so many thoughts floating around....and I really 'njoy reading most of 'em.

Ever since I started knowing myself, i had a desire to talk about my thoughts...like others I started with writing my dairy....those were the bad days and most of time i enjoyed talking to my loneliness through some writeups, but it was hard to keep it safe, so i ended up in destroying it. When I got my comp, I started writing it in word doc....but could not follow up on this properly. Net is a good medium...so here I am with you.

"The dinner is being served in the cafe" - Indian food daily sponsored by co...tht's wht i like most abt working here. And for sure, i don't want to miss it. So I break it here...till v meet again!